Hello guys. I was searching for such a site for a long time and finally here I am. First of all congratulations for this site!!I'm 17 years old and totally accepted myself as gay and I am really happy! However my life as most of gay guys has been and is difficult...I remember when I was 9, 3i dimotikou, at night I was dreaming of kissing my male teacher and I was cumming without really koning what that was. I found nothing wrong about it. In the next year as I was a shy, quiet guy some boy classmates started bullying me because I had no strength inside. For the next three years I cam home and I was crying. I didn't konw what was happening to me, I didn't want to go out, I was afraid of the society. I remember many times when my parents were going to weddings and were telling me to go with them, I was locked in the toilet and was crying for hours. When I went to the gymnasium, it was the first time I was watching gay porn. I was surprised when I saw all those handsome men being gay because I thought that all gays were ugly. I don't know if my father saw which site I surfed as at that age I didn't know how to delete history. In the meantime at school I only had 3-4 friends. One day two friends closest to me asked me if I was gay! I was shocked but I was suspicious that they would ask me that..I immediately said"NO!!! Wtf? ARe you crazy?" ..but I did know I was!In the next years while watching porn I was trying to find girlfriends and in fact I had quite many... Fortunately when I was at the 1st class of lyceum, I said "what Im I doing? Im gay and I have a gf?" .. so I ended up the relationship with my gf but I felt really sad because she was destroyed! I said I'm never going to do the same mistake. I like boys!!In the summer of 2009 I met many guys, had one night stands ..but what I wanted was a boy for me!<ed. text deleted due to inappropriate references>From them I am always happy, I like going out and I love myself. I met guys for more than one night stand. I knew what I wanted and I was proud of it. I can't change anyway so why should I be so sad? While seeing that guys my age are so confused, Im proud that at this young age I accepted myself:D.. I am so happy of me and I made many friends, most of them straight. I love my life and I am always optimistic.I look into my past life and I smile...I am so lucky I met that man, the married man!